Had an event today. Our duty is mainly to take care of the kids and play with them. The good thing is that, they really want to play. And the bad thing is that, they don't care how to play and they don't listen to you. They just play. So, there were times when the kids were out of control and fight each other.
There was a kid which caught my attention very much. He was kind of sadistic. I felt sad at times looking at him when I couldn't do anything to stop him. He was happy when he went against other people. I asked him a few times why for many things he did. He just mumbled and kept saying "da bian" or something similar. He felt funny with what he said and he laughed.
Then there was a t-shirt painting session also. It's a sad moment again. So, we gave them t-shirts with certain pictures on it. All the kids needed to do was to colour the picture we drew. Well, I can see they like to do the painting very much. But the thing is, they just don't care how like I said. And they totally ruined the t-shirt I drew. They put a lot of water and the colour on the t-shirt smudged. They were just simply colouring and didn't even care about the dolphin I drew. Sad. Sad. Sad. SAD. It's really sad to let things go out of control. My dolphin...
It's 9.52 pm now. I was on my bed at 8 something because I was really really tired. Then I realized that I had to meet someone at 9.30. And now that someone can only make it at 10 something. I really really want to go to bed now but, NO.
So now I am killing time.
And my friend's father passed away a few days ago. This is really really sad. I really really really hope I could take control of the time. I can't imagine what would happen to me if my parents were to pass away.
Tears in my eyes suddenly.
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2012年12月1日星期六
Haile Gebrselassie
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Vnyx06yjhU4
He is one of the fastest marathoners on this planet. He is simply amazing. The video is from 1998 and I like watching him running. It's no longer a world record because someone else has broken it. But this is still amazing.
If only I could run at that pace.
He is one of the fastest marathoners on this planet. He is simply amazing. The video is from 1998 and I like watching him running. It's no longer a world record because someone else has broken it. But this is still amazing.
If only I could run at that pace.
2012年11月12日星期一
SAVE YOURSELF
Karma. This word first came to me when I was 17 I think. It is about doing good deeds and planting good karma. I cannot accept something without a reason or reasons. And this theory of karma is very sensible to me. Let's say, in an area of A, there are 10 people. If one person among the ten people uses a knife and cuts someone within that area A, then someone is going to get hurt. The person injured will feel upset about it and might do the same thing to the next person. In the end of it, the hurting process might come BACK to you. Well, the worst thing is not about you getting hurt, because you started the hurting process to begin with. The worst thing is that, in the process, 9 people are to get injured as well! Wah piang eh.
Okay, so if it is true for 10 people, it is definitely true for 100 people, 1 000 people, 10 000 people, 100 000 people, 1 000 000 people,...
You might say, "Ah, that is going to take a very long time to come back to me. Wahahaha." That is not exactly true. I assume that everyone wants to live as long as possible. So, if you are going to do or are doing some bad deeds, you are definitely going to do it in your area or in the vicinity. For instance, you hurt someone verbally in your school. So, you are actually doing bad karma and planting bad seeds very near to you which the consequences of it might(I believe it will) come back to you one day.
Ha... Very logical right? That is why I believe in karma. When you are about to misconduct or misbehave, please think of this. There is no point doing bad karma. You might get an instantaneous pleasure at the moment you conduct the bad karma, but as the word suggests, it is only instantaneous. Don't be stupid. It is not going to last long. .________. I am wondering how do the people think nowadays.
I remember a venerable said something about this. If you can't do anything good to a situation, then do nothing. Do not be upset and do not be worried either. If you can't stop the bad karma at hitting other people, at the very least, SAVE YOURSELF! You can't do anything, just go to sleep!
Alright, live your life happily. May everyone be well and happy always.
2012年9月25日星期二
Right or Wrong?
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| A photo of SPM moral trial examination from facebook. Someone wrote 'wajar' and got a big zero. |
This is so inappropriate. How could the ministry of education of Malaysia approve and put this in the SPM trial examination. There is no defined line between right and wrong. It all depends on your intention of doing something.
This is super hasty generalization.
The MODEL answer is obviously 'tidak wajar'. And you do not need to explain to get the one point. You just have to write 'tidak wajar'. WTF?
So disappointed. This is so biased.
2012年9月21日星期五
Confusion
What am I doing? What is life?
I just came back from NTU Buddhist Society Dharma Class. On the way back to my room, I had been thinking. What am I actually doing? Study study study. What's the purpose of studying? What's the purpose of life? Why am I here? Why am I breathing? How does it feel like when I am dying? What will I be thinking just a few seconds before I die?
No matter what you do, no matter what process you have gone through, you will die someday. It might be tomorrow, the day after tomorrow, next week, the week after next week...
It's pretty much like the concept of displacement. No matter how long you go, you will reach the same point as everyone else does. Our displacements are the same.
In the Dharma Class, prof. Tan did talk about rebirth. You might not be born as a human in your next life. Then how do animals achieve enlightenment? For instance, do ants think like human?
Life.
I am not sure if I can call myself a Buddhist. As a Buddhist, we are not allowed to kill. Okay, very simple. But let say, a deadly mosquito lands on your hand and wants to suck your blood, WHAT SHOULD YOU DO? You have 2 seconds before it starts sucking your blood. And the mosquito might carry certain viruses which could be lethal.
In the past, when a mosquito landed on my hand, I would observe the species of it first and then only decide what to do. If it is an AEDES(with white stripes), I would kill it right away. Sorry for that. Sorry for that. Sorry. I can recognize AEDES only. From what I know, AEDES might or might not carry the virus AIDS. I will seriously try not to kill from now onwards even if you are an AEDES.
Life is indeed full of sufferings.
Whatever it is, I will just enjoy my life. The end.
By the way, I am feeling quite glad that I joined BS. At least I made a right choice yea! All the committees are really giving me the warm feeling. Just that sometimes I feel a little shy and don't know how to smile nicely.
Okay. The end for real.
I just came back from NTU Buddhist Society Dharma Class. On the way back to my room, I had been thinking. What am I actually doing? Study study study. What's the purpose of studying? What's the purpose of life? Why am I here? Why am I breathing? How does it feel like when I am dying? What will I be thinking just a few seconds before I die?
No matter what you do, no matter what process you have gone through, you will die someday. It might be tomorrow, the day after tomorrow, next week, the week after next week...
It's pretty much like the concept of displacement. No matter how long you go, you will reach the same point as everyone else does. Our displacements are the same.
In the Dharma Class, prof. Tan did talk about rebirth. You might not be born as a human in your next life. Then how do animals achieve enlightenment? For instance, do ants think like human?
Life.
I am not sure if I can call myself a Buddhist. As a Buddhist, we are not allowed to kill. Okay, very simple. But let say, a deadly mosquito lands on your hand and wants to suck your blood, WHAT SHOULD YOU DO? You have 2 seconds before it starts sucking your blood. And the mosquito might carry certain viruses which could be lethal.
In the past, when a mosquito landed on my hand, I would observe the species of it first and then only decide what to do. If it is an AEDES(with white stripes), I would kill it right away. Sorry for that. Sorry for that. Sorry. I can recognize AEDES only. From what I know, AEDES might or might not carry the virus AIDS. I will seriously try not to kill from now onwards even if you are an AEDES.
Life is indeed full of sufferings.
Whatever it is, I will just enjoy my life. The end.
By the way, I am feeling quite glad that I joined BS. At least I made a right choice yea! All the committees are really giving me the warm feeling. Just that sometimes I feel a little shy and don't know how to smile nicely.
Okay. The end for real.
2012年7月27日星期五
2012年7月18日星期三
2012年1月26日星期四
How I wasted an hour of my life
So, I am applying to NTU and I've been filling in the same form twice. Both ended up with an error, and erased everything i filled in. WTF.
It took me half an hour to fill in once, so total up one hour. Shit, just wasted an hour of my life. Hate it.
Alright, perhaps it was the problem of my old lappie. I will fill in the form for the third time, tomorrow.
YOU KNOW WHAT? ERROR IS NO MATCH FOR ME! *middle finger*
Sorry, just being frustrated.
It took me half an hour to fill in once, so total up one hour. Shit, just wasted an hour of my life. Hate it.
Alright, perhaps it was the problem of my old lappie. I will fill in the form for the third time, tomorrow.
YOU KNOW WHAT? ERROR IS NO MATCH FOR ME! *middle finger*
Sorry, just being frustrated.
2012年1月24日星期二
2012年1月19日星期四
Don't play play
I have been driving for more than half a year. Please let me say something about I've learned. Your own and others' SAFETY should be given the utmost priority. Say, you hurt yourself while you're on the way to the destination, you'll get to the place even later right? So, no point rushing. There are actually a few friends of mine, driving recklessly in my point of view. I tell t hem this and that, they don't think so anyway.
There is a friend of mine, bumped his car into the fence by the roadside. He's just got his new car a month ago. =.= speechless. He accelerates his car in an instant, and brakes his car just a few seconds before he hits something. Luck wasn't by his side that day. So he banged the fence. And one more friend of mine, he thinks he's cool all the time. ALLOW ME TO LOL, because that's not the fact. He drives as if he will never get himself into an accident. What he likes to do the most? Quite the same as the first guy, accelerates and swerves in a sudden.
Personally, I care about how my passengers feel. Driving has to be smooth. Accelerate smoothly, decelerate smoothly, steer to right/left smoothly. Please, be a safe driver.
2012年1月18日星期三
Gravity
Watched a video on YouTube. It was about an experiment, more to physics, using a toothpick, two forks, and a glass. They could balance the toothpick on the edge of the glass, with two forks on the toothpick(outside the glass) and thus the whole experiment SEEMED defying gravity. Well, you may not understand what I'm saying but never mind. That's not what I want to say.
They conducted the experiment, shot the video, it was good one. But hell, why NO explanations? Leaving me hanging half in the air. Zzz. Fortunately I found the answer from one of the comments.
Physics is really an interesting subject after all. What surrounds us, what happens everyday must have got something to do with physics.
INTERESTING!
They conducted the experiment, shot the video, it was good one. But hell, why NO explanations? Leaving me hanging half in the air. Zzz. Fortunately I found the answer from one of the comments.
Physics is really an interesting subject after all. What surrounds us, what happens everyday must have got something to do with physics.
INTERESTING!
118(yat yat fat)
Hi :) It has been really long since I last updated my blogspot.
I'm kinda lazy to use mandarin to update now.
TIME FLIESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS, really. When I was in primary school, I wanted to get into secondary school. When I was in secondary school, I wanted to get back to primary school. This is ironic, and that's life.
Yesterday was 117. 117 is really a big day for each of us, all tiong leng kias. We will never forget 117. Two years ago, when I just woke up on that day, I got the bad news from friends through facebook. In fact, it was the worst news I had ever received. :( Life is harsh no doubt.
And recently, another tiong leng kia just passed away. It really saddened me. People die everyday, but you do not feel it until it involves people around you. So, please appreciate each and everyone of you. You wouldn't know who was next. My mom always tells me, " Coffin isn't something just for old man, it is something for people who died." :(
Alright, I'll stop here. Have no idea what else to add in.
I'm kinda lazy to use mandarin to update now.
TIME FLIESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS, really. When I was in primary school, I wanted to get into secondary school. When I was in secondary school, I wanted to get back to primary school. This is ironic, and that's life.
Yesterday was 117. 117 is really a big day for each of us, all tiong leng kias. We will never forget 117. Two years ago, when I just woke up on that day, I got the bad news from friends through facebook. In fact, it was the worst news I had ever received. :( Life is harsh no doubt.
And recently, another tiong leng kia just passed away. It really saddened me. People die everyday, but you do not feel it until it involves people around you. So, please appreciate each and everyone of you. You wouldn't know who was next. My mom always tells me, " Coffin isn't something just for old man, it is something for people who died." :(
Alright, I'll stop here. Have no idea what else to add in.
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